My brain fog has been prominent but it hasn't been at the level of intensity and debilitation it provided me with in the beginning of treatment. Also my memory has been improving drastically.
I'm in no way implying that I am completely healed or in remission from Lyme Disease but there isn't a doubt in my mind that the protocol I have been on for the past 7 months has been healing me at the fastest rate possible.
On the 16th, I had my birthday and turned 24 years of age. Even though the birthday wishes felt to me as an obligatory custom, they did reprise a sense of belonging. That a life still exists for me and it's waiting for my return.
Yesterday I had visited my N.D. (Naturopathic Doctor) for the first time in a few months and updated her on my status. I told her I was progressively getting better. I knew that my experience would benefit her own education.
I told her that my worst symptom, be it neither physical nor mental, was in fact spiritual. It was a lack of passion and an inability to embrace the beautifully simple experiences in life.
I told her that if I were to sit on a porch and simply gaze into the setting of the sun, I could not embrace that moment or reap its soulfully lifting properties. I had become numb. It is as if a fog obstructs the absorption.
We also discussed my protocol and what direction I would take with it.
I was also concerned with intoxication of such a high dose but she assured me that Oregano has never been found to be a burden on the liver.
The lack of an intense herx would lead me to presume that the level of the bacterium in my body has drastically reduced.
I proposed the idea of adding either Samento or Cumanda and she unhesitantly agreed.
As of today, I have started taking Cumanda which is actually a part of the Cowden protocol.
Cumanda is a powerful antimicrobial and even Dr Cowden him self has nicked name it K.E.E.P (Kill Everything Except People).
Dr Cowden's plan for Cumanda entails reaching 30 drops a day total in 15 days time and remaining at this dosage for 2 months.
From personal experience, I can't imagine this feat being achievable in such a short period of time without the inclusion of a herx but I'll take it one day at a time.
Getting a little personal, I'd like to mention that the people I encounter through Tired of Lyme have touched me in such an appreciative way. I can't describe enough how meaningful it is to have a mutual relationship of support, faith and hope with you all.
Everyone who comes to this site and finds some sort of consolation, in return gives me a reason to give everyone else a reason to keep fighting.
Some of your stories are simply just unimaginable. A lot of your find it nearly impossible to heal yourselves with the added responsibility of family to attend to.
Some of you have been suffering for so long and have yet to still find a doctor that could provide hope, let alone a diagnosis for your symptoms.
Words can't describe how admirable your stance and fortitude is during such an inconceivable endurance.
You have and are still learning what you and your body are capable of.
God I know it is so hard to be a human being in this state of existence and you're doing it with the sacrifice of many tears and lonely nights.
People have turned their backs on you for the quintessential reason of ignorance. Your honesty and pain was never enough to convince them of the truth but by God if that isn't a reason to never give up, I don't know what it.
Most importantly, don't ever let anyone make you feel like you owe them more than the truth!
I plan on writing some articles in the coming days. I'm currently spending a lot of time on this dosage theory that I have yet to figure out but if you guys have topic suggestions, by all means let me know what you're interested in.