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Believe Me: My Battle With The Invisible
Disability of Lyme Disease
By Yolanda Hadid (Foster)
Disability of Lyme Disease
By Yolanda Hadid (Foster)
Lyme Disease creates a void in our memory
Since we were born, we've continuously been exposed to the information life presents to our brains. We retain it and build an internal storyline of events that have unfolded before our eyes. But what if such a cause would prevent any more information from further being stamped or recorded within our minds? A cause that would create a gap in the storyline of events of the life we've constructed in our minds since birth. It would appear as if a piece of your life's history is missing or that a recall of any event during this time period came up blank. A page in the history book that appears to be missing, or never written at all.
As we begin to heal from Lyme Disease, we slowly become reacclimated to the society we have intentionally distanced ourselves from for far too long. We become reacquainted with old friends and family while at the same time our brain beings to register the new information about their lives they present to us but hold on just a second. This new information comes as a shock to us as we've had no formal understanding of how this new information came to be. The mind starts to question what and where are the events that led up to the new chapter of the lives of people we once knew everything about. We draw a blank; a vacancy; a void. The reason is that the brain was not retaining any new information from the specific time period in which we isolated ourselves from society until the time in which we are slowly reintroduced.
How could it be that there exists no details or information of a specific time period in our mind's history? No recollection of how our friends and family achieved their current successes or failures. How could there be no memory stored within our brains? Why does it appear that we were asleep for months or years on end? It's very simple really. The moment Lyme Disease took hold of our lives, we slowly pulled away and introverted ourselves from society.
We had no choice though. A disease that quickly became rampant transformed our love of life into a fight for it. We needed to defend ourselves. It was an instinctive duty destined at birth if such a perilous situation were ever to arise.
Since such an instinctive decision to wage an internal war was made, our brains no longer were conscious or aware of the surroundings, people or experiences we long attached ourselves to. It was deemed by the brain to be unnecessary to preserve life. Only the essential and vital information available in existence to fight Lyme Disease effectively and efficiently was allowed to be retained. It was if Lyme Disease itself had induced a coma; a conscious coma. It is a coma in which we are still conscious of our current and immediate environment and the events that came to be, but the moment it passed, so did the information our brains would understand normal circumstances retain for future reference. Thus yielding a time gap in our minds of occurrences that would have normally been recalled by the brain for simple understanding and reasoning.
It would appear that the brain is not up to date in regards to memory. The brain's memory seems to have left off just before we forcefully broke away and disconnected from society. This could explain why the experiences with people or events post Lyme Disease could comes as a shock or wonder. Your brain responds to these post Lyme scenarios with pre-Lyme knowledge and memories. It's an astonishing experience and jolting revelation that quickly yields a reminder that much has occurred in the world since having Lyme and that very little, if any of it, has been retained.
It's hard to grasp but despite our intermission from life, all of its constituents still continued to produce information. The only difference is that we were not present at the time of this information's release. As a result, our brains began to lack critical pieces of history of the lives of our society. The world still carried on regardless of our unfortunate and secluded state of being. It would appear that this desolate state of existence for us caused the blank or void we conceive when we begin to reacclimate in society and attempt to understand how the current state of life became.
You'll eventually heal from Lyme Disease and when you do, you'll begin to reintroduce information that became long ago. You'll start to fill in the pieces of history that remained unretainable from where your brain left off long ago. It will come as a shock to not only see where your friends and family are now but how they got there or how they came to be. This fragile exposure will give rise to questions of new reasoning and understanding as we then begin to fill in the blanks in our memory with the information that we now know and understand to be useless for survival. We as humans have an instinctive desire to understand how events unfold or come to fruition. To be without the critical information of an event's precursors gives way to the illusion of a standstill of time; the standstill of the mind.