I currently aim to write a blog post at least once a month. Those of you who have followed me from the start know that the rate at which I wrote was sometimes daily. Well why has the rate dropped so drastically? Well, to be blunt.. I'm healing.
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The sun struggled to send light through the hazy lens of clouds in the east of the early morning hours. What light that did get through yielded a vast frozen tundra that touched a warm and clear blue sky in the west. The cold and crisp air blew the snow across the land that had yet to find a permanent resting place.
I can't believe it's been over 2 months since my last blog post. It's the longest I've gone without writing one; which could be a good thing! On the 15th of December, which is in 9 days, I will have been on the Buhner protocol for exactly 4 months. Is it working? Yes. Before I started the Buhner protocol, I was skeptical when I read a review on it in which a person claimed that in just a few weeks, many of their symptoms have dissipated. Another claim was that in just 6 months, all of their symptoms were gone! It just seemed too good to be true and that if it really was as great as it was being proclaimed, why didn't I know about it all along? Why was it not constantly plastered in my face? How come I've never seen vast numbers of raves about it on online forums? Because that's the stark reality of Lyme Disease. I am still feeling the affects of the full moon that recently occurred this past Saturday. My cognitive thought is completely worthless and it only adds to my demoralizing and self loathing state. As I have mentioned before, I completely understand and can even relate why someone who has struggled with Chronic Lyme Disease for so long would contemplate suicide. Never in my life have I endured such hellish torture nor could I have fathomed succumbing to such. I now know what it's like to be brought to your knees before the eyes of sheer malicious intent. The bacteria within is attempting to kill me. That's the cold hard truth and reality of the situation at hand. It's an honest revelation many of us bury in the back of our minds and choose not to acknowledge, but it's there. Every so often this truth resurfaces in my conscious thought and I can't help but feel that I was never as special or significant as I have been lead to believe through out my life. I now understand that I am not untouchable. Fate may have had it that if circumstances regarding my condition with Lyme Disease were much different, I may not have been alive this day. Well the truth is that I'm not in remission. You know, it's amazing that even a doctor who claims to be Lyme literate can be wrong when it comes to determining if the infection within me has since given up. A couple months ago, I had seen a Lyme literate doctor who stated he believed I was in remission from Lyme Disease and that the remaining symptoms were "nerve damage". Of course I had to question this claim but I kept my curiosity to myself and decided to finally hand my trust over to a "professional". In a nut shell, he was dead wrong and my instincts were right. I not only still had an active Lyme infection but also coinfections.
I have since switched over to the Stephen Buhner protocol about a month ago. The protocol has been nothing but intriguing and effective to say the least. A couple days ago during the night, I awoke with these intense itches scattered across my body. It wasn't until the next morning that I found the culprit; herxing that took the form of many rashes. Though my body was plastered with these unsightly red rashes, I wore them with a sense of pride. A pride that arose from the confidence I developed in the protocol. How am I feeling? The big question. I am feeling really good. Energy levels are plateauing and I have even picked up a part time job. Herxing has been nearly non existent due to the method of the Buhner protocol; such a beautiful reasoning exists at its core. The other day I had visited the local health food store in search of a specific trace mineral known as Molybdenum. If you've never heard of it, don't beat yourself up. Molybdenum's popularity in the world of minerals is comparable to that of the white crayon in the crayon box. It exists but people tend to avoid it as it only serves useful under the appropriate circumstances. Today was different though as my circumstances warranted the use of the white crayon. As I would later learn, I was herxing bad but not from Lyme Disease. Oh no, this recent state of debilitation is credited entirely to candida die off. For so long, I questioned the ineffectiveness of standard detox methods (e.g., epsom salt bath, sauna, burbur) I had been utilizing to reduce a suspected Lyme Disease die off. These methods of detoxification took the edge off but for a reason that had since eluded me, their detrimental effects remained. |
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