The foundation of a dream is based entirely off of memories buried within our subconscious
The memories are buried so deep that we can not access them in our conscious state
They can only be reached while asleep
Some memories are so unfamiliar that we question their existence.
Could a memory with no trail of birth come from an experience of our own?
Lyme has surely prohibited any access into our subconscious or conscious realm for far too long
With Lyme, memories are normally inaccessible and usually we are numb and feel nothing at all
But things are changing
My dreams as of recently have become so vivid, realistic, emotional and nostalgic
It is almost as if a barrier to my prelyme psyche has been breached
The way I use to think
The way I use to feel
The memories I use to recall are flourishing back in an expected and overwhelming way
It can only be a true indication of healing
I am scared though
I am scared that one day when I am beyond this hell, I will face a new one
A new reality
The reality that relationships can't just continue where they left off
The reality that many days of my life will feel as if they were wasted
That even though I beat Lyme Disease, the life I will reclaim once again will have expired
For so long the Lyme has created an impenetrable security from the outside world
And when it has departed, it will have taken one last shot
I will come to realize that I will not be the only aspect of my life that needs to be repaired
The memories are buried so deep that we can not access them in our conscious state
They can only be reached while asleep
Some memories are so unfamiliar that we question their existence.
Could a memory with no trail of birth come from an experience of our own?
Lyme has surely prohibited any access into our subconscious or conscious realm for far too long
With Lyme, memories are normally inaccessible and usually we are numb and feel nothing at all
But things are changing
My dreams as of recently have become so vivid, realistic, emotional and nostalgic
It is almost as if a barrier to my prelyme psyche has been breached
The way I use to think
The way I use to feel
The memories I use to recall are flourishing back in an expected and overwhelming way
It can only be a true indication of healing
I am scared though
I am scared that one day when I am beyond this hell, I will face a new one
A new reality
The reality that relationships can't just continue where they left off
The reality that many days of my life will feel as if they were wasted
That even though I beat Lyme Disease, the life I will reclaim once again will have expired
For so long the Lyme has created an impenetrable security from the outside world
And when it has departed, it will have taken one last shot
I will come to realize that I will not be the only aspect of my life that needs to be repaired
