3 days ago I hit the 9 month mark for my Lyme Disease protocol.  As I should probably be feeling proud of myself for religiously adhering to it for so long, I feel otherwise.  I'm growing impatient.

Believe me when I tell you that I have come to terms with Lyme Disease.  I understand that I had to sacrifice all of the treasures of my life in order to preserve and salvage the one I hold most dear.  My own life.  It's just after being unwillingly obedient for such an extended duration, one naturally grows impatient.

I've made it clear that if I knew the exact date or at least the month of when I would achieve remission, I could guarantee that this fight would be in the bag but there is a problem.  I don't know the date I'll achieve remission nor could I ever before that day comes.  It's still not and will never be a reason to lose hope or doubt as we continue to endure.

From what I have gathered from the people whom I've talked with who reached the day we all yearn for, it takes roughly a year to a year and a half to reach remission form Lyme Disease.  Obviously this is based off of a protocol that works and there are many. Some will require more time and some have done it in less but one must consider the many different factors that affect each of us differently such as coinfections, diet, environment, stress level, optimism, etc.

Also if you're on a protocol for Lyme Disease and it's not working, get yourself on a new one!  Just because your protocol hasn't been working doesn't mean you need to lose faith or believe remission is out of your reach.  It does mean that you just haven't found the right protocol yet.  What works for one surely doesn't work for all.

The human body is a remarkable piece of engineering and if given the appropriate tools and circumstances, it can heal itself from just about anything.  Why?  Well because that is what it was designed to do.  Whether you're consciously aware of it or not, your body is constantly performing functions in order to maintain life.  So why not give it a helping hand?

Things have been very strange as of recently.

My brain fog has been prominent but it hasn't been at the level of intensity and debilitation it provided me with in the beginning of treatment.  Also my memory has been improving drastically.

I'm in no way implying that I am completely healed or in remission from Lyme Disease but there isn't a doubt in my mind that the protocol I have been on for the past 7 months has been healing me at the fastest rate possible.

On the 16th, I had my birthday and turned 24 years of age.  Even though the birthday wishes felt to me as an obligatory custom, they did reprise a sense of belonging.  That a life still exists for me and it's waiting for my return.

Yesterday I had visited my N.D. (Naturopathic Doctor) for the first time in a few months and updated her on my status.  I told her I was progressively getting better.  I knew that my experience would benefit her own education.

I told her that my worst symptom, be it neither physical nor mental, was in fact spiritual.  It was a lack of passion and an inability to embrace the beautifully simple experiences in life.

I told her that if I were to sit on a porch and simply gaze into the setting of the sun, I could not embrace that moment or reap its soulfully lifting properties.  I had become numb.  It is as if a fog obstructs the absorption.

We also discussed my protocol and what direction I would take with it.