Ya know, as I look back and reflect on the time I've spent enduring Lyme Disease, from when the first symptoms surfaced, until now, it has been almost 4 years. The whole process, the doctors, the tests, the herxing, the darkest days, the medicine all seem like a blur. I can hardly recall the past 4 years with any great detail, but what I can recall with clarity is the nature of what I've been through.
I completely understand that what I've been through has changed me forever. But that goes with everything in life. Every experience we have in life we learn something, and it changes us just a little bit. Lyme Disease happened to be the change that was not subtle. Because the degree of change Lyme has in our lives is of such great magnitude, the change itself was noticeable and self-evident. Nearly any other experience in our life would have passed without our having to even question its impact because the change would be so small.
As of 2 days ago, I began Stephen Buhner's recommended protocol for Bartonella. I have since ended my active campaign against Babesia, and now aim to address a possible stubborn Bartonella infection. Already I've noticed I'm feeling better. Time will tell if this new campaign will yield the results I desire.
The Lyme Disease within has already begun to surrender. Very few Lyme Disease symptoms remain. Occasionally I'll find myself a little fatigued, or some floaters will appear in my vision, but other than that, the bacteria itself has decided to gives the controls back to me.
One symptom does remain ever present and it's been cognitive difficulties. This is part the reason why I have not written anything in so long. These cognitive difficulties started a few months ago and haven't let up since. As discouraged as you might imagine I'd be, I actually welcome it because it is not only my understanding, but that of a few good Lyme gurus, that as new layers of the bacteria are addressed, older symptoms will return. I remember hearing once that the brain is the last part of the body to heal from Lyme Disease. I don't know if there is any truth to that statement, but sooner than later I will find out!
I do want to thank everyone that continues to send me messages of gratitude for Tired of Lyme. It really means so much to me to hear from people that the site served them in a consoling manner at one point or another throughout their ordeal. Ironically, it has done the same for me; being the place I went to during the darkest days of my life, to record and preserve my understanding and experiences of a disease so devastating, for those whom one day may find themselves in the shoes I once wore.
No, I am not in remission, but I am no longer laying in bed all day. No longer do I lack the energy to stay awake all day. No longer do I need to nap 3 or 4 times a day. No longer do I run out of breath from the stairs. No longer do I struggle to read a paragraph. No longer do my joints ache. No longer is there pain where there once was a generous and ever present amount. No, I am not in remission, but the normality I once thought I'd never see again has since been reclaiming its inherent place in my life.
