I am suppose to end my use of Cumanda today according to the Cowden protocol but I have different plans. Being that I am herxing, which let me remind you is a good thing, I'm going to continue using it. The reason is simply because I'm herxing. I'm following the old adage here, "If it isn't broke, don't fix it." If I happen to be on a protocol combination at the current moment that is effective, why would I discontinue it?
After all, killing the bacteria is what treatment is all about and herxing is the best proof this is occurring. I may not get this opportunity down the road again so why waste it? Compare this thought to that of a wolf chasing down a buffalo. The buffalo has been caught but the wolf decides to let it go and eat the next buffalo that is caught. The wolf doesn't think like that. In reality, he isn't all that confident that he may catch another buffalo just as I may not be able to reproduce a herx in the future.
I mean it makes sense that if you've had an illness plaguing your body for an extensive period of time, surely it won't be an overnight fix. You also have to consider that some damage to the physical body will most likely have occurred. Let's say hypothetically that I did contract Lyme Disease when all of these unusual symptoms began. I would have been around 13 years old. I'm 24 now. That's a decade's worth of free reign over my body. I can not even fathom how deep this bacteria may have embedded itself into my physical body. I do have to give credit though to my immune system for doing what it could have and still does under such conditions. For I know dealing with Lyme Disease on a biological level is a shot in the dark for it, but I am beyond grateful for the genetically obligated effort it put forth.
As we all know, battling Lyme Disease and its cronies is the ultimate test of patience. I know a lot of people end up quitting their treatment protocols because they can't handle the herx. Some people have more important issues and obligations in their lives to adhere to and simply can not dedicate their time to the commitment required to heal from Lyme Disease.
I know its not easy putting your life on hold. I mean, in an essence, your life isn't really on hold as you're still aging while enduring Lyme Disease. I feel it's more on the lines of perspective. We feel that because we're unwillingly obligated to undertake Lyme Disease, we create the abstraction that our life is on hold. It's not on hold. It never was on hold and it never will be on hold. Time doesn't stand still for those who are ailing. It will portray zero mercy or compassion for those who feel these deserve it, simply because their life didn't go as planned.
The clock will keep ticking and what becomes of that time will ultimately and entirely depend on the choices you make. Any choice you make is perfectly fine as long as you approve of the consequences. There is no right or wrong direction to head in but instead an internal satisfaction to please. It's all a mind game. If given the appropriate circumstances, your immune system and Lyme treatment protocol will take care of your physical body but what or who is going to mend or fix your mind?